Friday, January 02, 2004
oh man..its been like decades since i last blog..sorry about that..cause well my infamous rabbit bit my internet wire heh
well man..been feeling like totally lethargic nowadays and yeah as usual procrastinating real bad as well..
well happy new year everyone!! well new year for me is pretty boring..
went off early cause was really feeling tired..hmm..xiu wore heels and jeans for the first time..really sweet..and ym supposedly was wearing a toga but she covered it with a jacket haha i am sure ym will look nice damn didnt see her take out the jacket..
oh yeah ashley wore this top and skirt..really sweet and sexy heh..
dash emailed me on new year's eve and i just got to open it today..
man the email was really touching...
what am i to do..i feel like i am back at the very beginning..what the hell..
i am like on my way to forgeting her!!
i dont want to be in a state of denial..i truly still love her...
but what the hell am i getting into? god knows..
why cant i seem to be able to comprehend all my emotions..why did all these feelings just gush back..why is all these giving me so much pain..
man..my tears just fell..finally..
why am i holding back?? can someone just give me the fucking answer..
i'm sorry..but i can no longer hold my pain inside..i hate this feeling..
i miss her so damn much..i really do..*ilu*
i know i have to be strong..didnt mean to feel like this..but this is the first time i ever felt this way..thats why i sounded so lost...
okay i gotta get a grip on myself..well me and her can only be friends..thats all..
shall and will not elaborate anymore..
//Why do I love you? Because you are and always have been my dream."//
//"Like a movie scene, in the sweetest dream, I've pictured us together."//
// If I could only hold you now and make the pain just go away
Can't stop the tears from running down my face//]
"Running Away"
I close my eyes and make a wish for
Inner peace and tranquillity inside
My mind I feel it's changing
Breaking down the defences of my heart
It's like a new adventure
And this is my life
No longer know the girl inside
The stranger in my mind
I'm running away. Running away from you
Though I beg you to stay. I'm running away from you
I'm running away. From predictable
Miss reliable. So methodical
Wanna be individual. And original
So radical. And desirable
Put a message in a bottle
Watch it sail across the ocean blue
So free of limitations
A vision I can only fantasize
I'm floating in a new direction
As this is my life
No longer know the girl inside
The stranger in my mind
//When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along//
//"True love is worth waiting for even if it takes a lifetime. Then in return a lifetime of love will be waiting for you''//
//"There's no limit to what I wouldn't do for you. Just ask, it will be done, no matter the miles, no matter the sacrifice. I love you, and you'll always be in my heart."//
Posted by Giselle at 1/02/2004 03:40:00 AM
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