Wednesday, September 24, 2003
hmm... here to blog again.. kinda stressed up over all the projects and hmwk comin my way.. hmm..but still able to take time up to blog so i guess shouldnt be that bad..-+=* well..its gonna be 30th september soon..its gonna be TWO whole years since i know DASHIE.. haha guess now i am feelin nostalgic..but i have been thinkin alot..especially during night-time when i couldnt get to sleep.. everything seems to cross my mind..i've got no idea why..
i cant deny that she's still a very important person in my life.. she's so amazing that everytime i receive her message.. my smile will juz reach all the way to my cheeks.. i am not lying..two days ago she message me, and i was alone waitin for my bus to arrive..when i receive her message.. you should have seen the expression on my face. haha the peeps at the bus stop must have thought that i was nuts, smilin to myself.. but i was really so happy that i wouldnt mind pple callin me idiots or whatsoever..
Then it occur to me that no one has ever made me feel this way.. sure i do have crushes and all like my *dream butch* but crush are just crush..they are different from LOVE..
its not everyday that i am able to meet someone like dashie..
its not everyday that i am able to fall so deep with that special someone for so long..from the first day i saw her till now..
its also not everyday that i am able to love someone unconditionally and still holdin on for her..
its so easy to have a crush but from a crush that slowly move on to likes and then slowly develop to LOVE, its not an easy thing to do at all..
to be keepin how i feel for dashie from the first time i saw her till eight months later when she finally confess how she feels for me is sucha damn hard thing and i dont ever wanna go thru that process with anyone else again..
Yes.. i did make a terrible mistake of choosin kevin over dashie so now i have to live with regret..
Yes..i did try and forget dashie by dating many other more people and ended up dumpin them all..
Yes you can call me immature, idiot, flirt,superficial or whatsoever..cause i guess i deserve it.. i was tryin to get over dashie at other people's expenses.. which was mean.. i shouldnt have done it..brought misery to others..but i didnt think of that at that time..
Yes.. i was lucky.. those people that i crush on did like me back but they always see the surface of me cause i always guard myself from people hence i get hurt..
Yes..what hurt me the most is knowin that me and dash could be together but yet cant be cause her thinkin do not allows us to do that...
No..i dont blame her at all.. i respect her decision and if she's happier this way, i will definitely be happy.. What can makes me happier then to see her smile...
Yes.. i still remember what dashie wore on the first time i saw her at parkway parade on 30th sept 2001.. its still so fresh in my head..
Yes.. i still remember how i felt everytime i meet up with you.
Yes.. i still remember the time when we went suntec with mt, kavan ym and frens..what you wore that time..
Yes..even if i had to choose between anybody else in the world that i wanna be with, i will still choose dashie..
Yes..i am really happy to get to know you.
Yes..i never thought we could drift so much..now all i have are memories of you and me..
Yes..i am a fool to let you just slip away from me..
Yes..i do cherish dash ALOT....
Yes..there's always a little hope in me that someday we will be together..
Yes..i know somehow someday i will have to move on and leave all the memories before.. but how you taught me to love, how you supported me through the hard times i was goin thru, how ya make me laugh, how ya make me cry, how ya was there for me no matter what..i will never in my whole entire life forget..
Lovin you was definitely the best choice that i've made and i never ever regret the decision of Lovin you..My love for you is never-endin and unconditional..
If anytime you need me to be there for you, i will definitely be there. -+=*
"I Wanna Love You Forever"
You set my soul at ease
Chased darkness out of view
Left your desperate spell on me
Say you feel it to
I know you do
I've got so much more to give
This can't die, I yearn to live
Pour yourself all over me
And I'll cherish every drop here on my knees
I wanna love you forever
And this is all I'm asking of you
10,000 lifetimes together
Is that so much for you to do?
Cuz from the moment that I saw your face
And felt the fire in your sweet embrace
I swear I knew.
I'm gonna love you forever
My mind fails to understand
What my heart tells me to do
And I'd give up all I have just to be with you
and that would do
I've always been taught to win
And I never thought I'd fall
Be at the mercy of a man
I've never been
Now I only want to be right where you are.
In my life I've learned that heaven never waits no
Lets take this now before it's gone like yesterday
Cuz when I'm with you there's nowhere else
That I would ever wanna be no
I'm breathing for the next second I can feel you
Loving me ... I'm gonna love
What My Heart Wants To Say"
you're amazing
so amazing
have I told you
enough
you're my angel
guardian angel
god knows I've been blessed with love
but if I been gone tomorrow
would you know how deep my loves goes
have I ever told you
you're the one
if the words don't come my way
hope its still love
hope it still shows
if the words don't come my way
hope you still know what my heart wants to say
words so tender
I surrender
to this feeling
so true
my affirmation
my inspiration
darling I have been blessed with you
if the words don't come my way
hope you still know
hope it still shows
if the words don't come my way
I hope you still know what my heart wants to say
but if I be gone tomorrow
would you know how deep my loves goes
if I was gone forever
would you know how much I care
you make me feel like flying
and failing all emotion
that everytime you look at me
you see it in my eyes
if the words don't come my way
I hope you still know
if the words don't come my way
I hope you still know
I hope it still shows
Oh dear i cant believe i wrote so much.. my tears like gonna drop off any moment better stop now before my dad come in and check on me..anyway hope that everybody will be able to find their one true love.. take care peeeeepps..=)
Posted by Giselle at 9/24/2003 05:35:00 AM
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