Friday, December 19, 2003
man i am feeling nostalgic again..i hate that feeling...it sucks big time..why do you still linger in my mind..i wish ya would just leave quietly till i am ready..
did i do the sillest thing ever? i msged her a forwarded msg..its a friend msg..first time ever i send it to her..perhaps why i send her that is so that she will see me as a friend and i would accept her as friend and learnt the hard way or whatever i've no idea what i am blabbering out as well..
FRIEND!! get this in my head..she's just a friend to me..but how come i have so damn much feelings for her..man i shouldnt be thinking about her at all..
*"Wherever life takes me, no matter what path I take, even if I meet new people, bear in mind that you'll never lose your place in my heart because there is only one girl in my life, and that's you."*
hmm..alright i dyed my hair today..nothing fascinating..
ooh ecca your blog is incredibly nice..heh real cools
and my dear i miss ya..haha come back quick..
hmm..well nothing much to blog..tatas..
anyway shurong and ym we going these together yeahs..i am sure we will be happy in time alright..just that its gonna be real difficult..just keep the faith!!
muaks..
//"I'v learned that things change, people change, and it doesn't mean you forget the past or try to cover it up. It simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn't mean giving up it means accepting that some things weren't meant to be."//
//"The hardest part about moving forward is not looking back!"//
//"Sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow, we must fail in order to know, Sometimes our vision clears only after our eyes are washed away with tears."//
//"I may regret the way we ended, but I will never regret what we had."//
//"Don't hold on to something that was never there."//
Hopeless
I hopelessly, helplessly, wonder why
Everything gotta change around me
I'd tell it to your face
But you lost your face along the way
And I'd say it on the phone
If I thought you were alone
Why do things have to change
But you don't need my pictures on your wall
You say you need no one
And you don't need my secret midnight call
I guess you need no one
Is anybody waiting at home for you
Cause it's time that will tell if it's heaven if it's hell or if it's
Anybody waiting at home for you
Cause it's time that will tell this tale
You're in and out up and down
Wonder if you're lost or found
But I got my hands on you
Are you strong enough to tow the line
Are you gonna make me yours
Or do I make you mine
I'm in and out I'm up and down
Wonder if I'm lost or found
But I need your hands on me now
I hopelessly, helplessly, wonder why
Everything gotta change
Posted by Giselle at 12/19/2003 04:54:00 AM
Thursday, December 18, 2003
man i am tired..physically and mentally..yeah i am missing her..i dont know why she has this ability to just pop into my mind anytime she wants and just go off without a trace..damn!!well anyway went out with ym,vainpottie and dougson tan..was alright after class..
was pretty tired and yeahs class was alright..oh man ya are not gonna believe this..eh the lecturer thought i was from junior college and that i seems like an ambitious girl..what a compliment hehe
hmm..well after that went town to slack and all..was cools..
well vainpottie..dont fret or struggle or anything alright..stand strong to your decision..it may be hard but hey if me and ym can do it..i am sure ya can do it as well..
have more faith in yourself instead of to her..and dont let her honeyed words get you down..they may tend to mislead ya and all..i am not trying to put her down and all but just that you deserved better..i am sure ya will be able to find somebody who deserves ya better..ya know ya are not alone..actually there are many more people suffering worse than us..i've been thinking as well that people have lost their love forever in an accident perhaps inevitable kind and yet they still lives on..well for us, its just a minor setback and yet we are like crying our hearts out..that makes us kinda like losers right..no offending..applicable to me as well..we should make the best out of this and find our happiness somewhere instead of mopping around..i would rather keep dash as my happy memories and move on, rather than living in the past,holding on cause the hope might eventually be dashed.. perhaps thats life where we gotta learn as we grow..it will make us stonger and not that easy to falter and all..
actually it aint that hard to forget someone, as long as you divert all your strength and motivation about loving that person towards forgetting..i'm sure in time ya will be able to..it may not be that easy but if ya have the determination,faith and perserverance i am sure ya will be able to move on with life..
oh ym thanks for the nice msg ya put for me on my blog..ya know ya are one special darling to me as well..always there for me and all..really appreciate it alot..and yeah i guess one of the best thing was also to get to know ya..ya are sucha sweet and nice gal man..i am sure someone will just sweep you of your feet and may ya find true love soon..ya totally deserve someone good..huggies..
hmm.well after blogging so long after love and life, it make me understand more..
i truly want dash to be happy and even though i am hurting inside, i am sure i will be able to let go and put her as one of my best memories ever..
and ecca..ya so poor thing haha hope ya will be able to find a guy man..it seems like someone/sth always get in the way..heh well anyway i know ya have a fetish for lip gloss will buy for ya some when ya come back from new jersey muacks..
//"Once in a while, the gift of love will come to us in full blossom, and we will take hold of it. If love chooses to leave, then set it free. It would surely come back if it's meant for you. Just be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life."//
//"You and her that's what you want. You and me that's what I dream."//
//"The space between what's wrong and right is where you'll find me hiding, waiting for you."//
//"Love's sweetest meanings are unspoken; the full heart knows no rhetoric of words, and resorts to the pantomime of sighs and glances."//
//Lately in my life i’m
Finding it harder to be
Certain of feelings that i
Thought would always be
Playing the game was easy
Saying the things that pleased me
But through it all
I can see that love has slipped away
Take this love away from me
Set my soul and spirit free
Take this love away from me
Let me be what I can be
Go make it easy on yourself
Lately in my life i’m
Finding I’m stronger if i
Picture myself no longer
Underneath your spell
Take this love away from me
Set my soul and spirit free
Take this love away from me
Let me be what I can be
Go make it easy on yourself
I can’t stand to see you
Couldn’t bear to feel you
It’s tearing my heart and soul in two//
Posted by Giselle at 12/18/2003 06:03:00 AM
Wednesday, December 17, 2003
well well here to blog..hmm..went out yesterday with ym.vainpot and two of her friends namely emily and sokying..well very cool..we played badminton..very fun..yeahs and yeah yesterday was a go wrong day for me kinda..well ya see firstly i remembered to filled my water bottle but i forgot to bring it out..absent-mindedness..and secondly i board the wrong train..going towards a wrong direction..yes and lastly i went to the wrong control station..what a muddle head i am..haha very hilarious..well nevertheless we met up in the end and all..yeahs very cools..well after that we went to serangoon to eat the pratas..and guess what we saw a rainbow..very nice..twice i saw this year..usually i would messaged dash and all..but i did not..trying to control my emotions and all..and yes i did it..+cheers+ heh yeahs well then we talked alot of ghost stories..very scary and all but was pretty alright..relaxing..
well then today woke up with muscle ache on my arm..heh yes i think i over exerted my arm muscles and didnt listen to vainpottie advice haha..yeahs thats to do warm up..yeah but i guess didnt play badminton for a long time thats why and vainpottie is a damn fantastic and quick badminton player..and ym is cool as well..better now i guess..heh gotta have more of this in future..heh..
hmm..today class was alright pretty cools..jeremy didnt come today crap as usual haha..
well guess what i met adrian in the mrt so damn scary..i was practically avoiding him and all..and was pretty obvious haha..yeahs cause he was standing waiting for the train then when i saw him i went to the far end..haha yeah i was so scared and intimidated by him..thanks lucky he didnt come over..+phew+
well..i am trying to keep my mind preoccupied with other stuffs so that i wont think of her..sigh..
//i just feel like holding her hand into mine to make her feel better//
well anyway dash said the duran duran was rockin good..=)
alright anyway i am so damn jealous of you ecca..going to new york to shop!! ya like going all around america..damn ya..haha yeah anyway i hope ya will have a great time..who knows ya might even have a holiday fling huh heh..
ooooh christmas is approaching..love is in the air..can you smell it heh..well so cools..cant wait for christmas man..
well gotta bolt now..tatas..
//"Real loss only occurs when you lose something that you love more than yourself."//
//"I can't escape the thought of you. Even in my dreams you are there. It's not fair how your gone, and how you're moving on so fast, while I am still living in the past."//
//"Living in the past causes you to miss out on the present. Life is too short to let it pass you by."//
"Fractured Love" Def Leppard
I'm caught in a dream
Sometimes it ain't what it seems
I'm all in a daze
Can't find my way out of this maze
I'm looking for clues
And wanting a change in the rules
I'm locked in a cage
Acting out on the wrong stage
Don't want your sympathy
Don't need the third degree
Just got to break away and scream
I'm caught in a dream
I'm stood at the edge and I'm looking down
Caught in the danger zone
I feel like a king that has lost his crown
And now I stand here alone
Don't want your sympathy
Don't need the third degree
Just got to break away and scream
I'm caught in a dream
Fractured love, Fractured love
Iron fist in a velvet glove
Fractured Love, fractured love
Cracks in the mirror of this fractured love
I don't care if you pull down the sky
Angry passion is a friend of mine
Reach out for the sky above
It's just a fractured love
Posted by Giselle at 12/17/2003 04:20:00 AM
Sunday, December 14, 2003
hmm..here to blog..oh well i gotta tell vainpot something..i cancelled the jog with dash..its not something that i anticipate i will do..but i decided its the best..perhaps wait till i am more stable before i can meet her or sth..cause i dont want history to repeat itself again..if ya all get what i mean..
well..usually i will not let these kind of things get me down..but this time its real difficult..but i am sure in time i will move on with life and be happy that she once came into my life and i did walked into her life..i just need time..and there is this saying as well that whenever a happiness door closes, another happiness door will opened but because we are too focus on the closed happiness door we tend to overlook the open happiness (hopefully correctly phrased)..well shall not brood over this matter and let nature take its course..my energy are pretty drained over this..so there..
well..went out on sat with ym,xiu,vainpot,christine and met up with fiona,twinny,ester and wendy as well..been a zillioon years since i ever saw them and my chrizzie wifey as well..
well gotta say thanks to my dearest vainpot and wifey for getting me jlo perfume..thats really swweeeet..i love it!! thanks ya both..heh..
hmm..we pretty much just slack around in town and all..and ym bought this lovely skirt from zara..real nice yeahs..must wear alright!!
anyway to vainpot..dont be sad or disappointed..love will find a way..if its meant for ya both to meet up sure will be able to even in unexpected circumstances..
and to dearest ym..cheer up alright even though ya are hurting inside and all..stay strong i am sure ya will be able to overcome your feelins..its not just sheer words..ya have to put your heart to it..
hmm..so boring tmr's school..end pretty late..alright shall end now tatas..=)
anyway a note to ecca thanks for lookin out for any johnny deppster lookey likeys haha like there is except for skeet ulrich hoho..well well..i will keep a lookout for eh oliver james lookey likey if there is..smiles..
//"Sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow, we must fail in order to know, Sometimes our vision clears only after our eyes are washed away with tears."//
//Though nothing can bring back the hours,Of splendour in the grass,
Of glory in the flowers,We will grieve not, rather find, Strength in what remains behind..."//
//"There are some things in life that don't go the way you want them to or the way you think they should, but you can't dwell on these because you'll miss out on other opportunites. Don't give up one something just because you don't think things will work, you won't know unless you give it a try. But don't hold onto something that left a long time ago, because sooner or later you'll realize some things just aren't meant to be."//
//"I'll make a wish for you, and hope it will come true that life would just be kind to such a gentle mind. If you lose your way, think back on yesterday; remember me this way."//
//"The fear about losing a loved one is the fear of change itself. Being used to one person, day after day, then to one day wake up all alone, a whole new day. Think of it as a chance to start over ... to learn from the past and make a brand new beginning."//
//"Dont let yesterday's disappointments overshadow tomorrow's dreams."//
Posted by Giselle at 12/14/2003 05:44:00 AM
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