Friday, December 12, 2003
alright and here to blog..hmm..didnt go out today..as you can see the weather is full of crap..raining and all..so decided to stay at home..most probably tomorrow will be going out..totally cant wait..its been about about 2 weeks since i venture town..wow..hmm..today's class was pretty alright..yes jeremy came today as usual at 940 when class commerce at 9am..haha what can i say no sense of urgency..=p
oh yes miraculously jeremy took bus with me but his bus came first damn!! always like that and he was chasing after the bus..damn funny..haha
hmm..i have been listening to ewan mcgregor and nicole kidman's come what may..the song found in the moulin rouge soundtrack..totally indulging in it..i dont know why..perhaps the song is so sappy just like how i feel..
anyway i would like to give a heartfelt thanks to ym.ecca and vainpot..thanks for all the support and care..am really grateful that i have you all..love ya all so much =)
well if there's anything or what you can count on me to be there for you all as well alright!!
well..its hard to stop loving her..i doubt i truly can..but i am gonna try..
till the day when i stop loving her is the day when i am ready to accept another relationship..yes..made up my mind about that..
alright gonna stop now..till then...
//"Looking back, I have this to regret, that too often when I loved, I did not say so."//
//'Tis better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all."//
//There's no love like a lost love and no pain like a broken heart.//
//It's hard to pretend you love someone if you really don't, but it's harder
to pretend you don't love someone if you really do. //
//Once in my life I laughed. Once in my life that empty space in my heart was
filled. Once in my life I loved someone more than anything in this world.
For once in my life, I had you. //
//When you love someone you must be ready to sacrifice anything, even if
that anything includes your happiness.//
//I don't miss you and you alone. I miss you and me together. //
//Should I smile because we're friends, or cry because that's all we'll ever be? //
//Letting go does not mean giving up, but accepting that there are things that
cannot be.//
//I love you then, i loved you now, the only sad thing is too late to tell you now..//
//"This thing and you shall never part, For the gift I give you, is all of my heart''//
//"I'm sorry I can't go any further with you And tonight may be a night I'll regret.'' //
Posted by Giselle at 12/12/2003 04:18:00 AM
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
hmm..well today was as usual..went to school and all..was drizzling..the weather getting bad..very cold and futhermore the classroom is air-conditioned and like freezing in the classroom..well lucky me, always bring my jacket so not intimidated by the air-con yeahs..well queen lian came today..surprised..and jeremy came at break time cause he woke up late.as usual..nothing new about that..well then after class accompanied him to bugis for awhile..as usual..he's talking loadsa trash and crap haha..well as i left to take the mrt, jeremy suddenly called me said that he saw adrian..haha for a moment i was so freaked out and all but then fortunately didnt see him, i am blessed heh..anyway very tired today cause was talking on the phone last night with dash..as well as shurong..thanks vainpot for listening to my probs and all..really thanks alots..was on the verge of breakdown..but i am alright now..
well i have come to a decision about dash..i have been avoiding this problem for far too long..the poem i wrote today during class will tell it all..
well nowadays been writing poems, the inspiration just flow through and the words just sprung onto my mind so decided to write it down.
Poignant
Walking down memory lane,
idlyllic glimpses of you and me,
talking, laughing,
enjoying each other's company.
Time stood still for a moment,
although not love enough for me to savour
Remembering every word you whisper to my heart,
every smile engrave into my soul.
Now, dealt with a cruel truth
sadness engulfs me.
Holding back the tears,
leaving behind the hope,
trying hard not to falter.
Things can never be the same.
But i aint gonna abandon you,
just call out my name
and i'll be there, i'll be there
to share your desolation and exhilaration.
//"It's a long road when you face the world alone, when no one reaches out a hand for you to hold. You can find love if you search within your soul, and the emptiness you felt will disappear."//
//"No matter how much it'll hurt me to see you, my most loved lost one, all that I wish is look into your eyes once again."//
//"The biggest mistake in my life that I have ever done was to let you go. And, now I realize that you will never come back to me."//
//"The most painful thing is to be sitting right next to the person you love most, but never being able to let them know."//
//"Oftentimes we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to. Though that doesn’t mean that we've stopped loving them or we've stopped to care. Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you."//
//"How can I love again when I can't stop loving the one that hurt me so much?"//
//"My heart only fought for what it wanted. Now my heart is having to fight to let him go."//
//"I could fill a thousand pages telling you how I felt and still you would not understand. So now I leave without a sound, except that of my heart shattering as it hits the ground."//
//"Who do you run to when the only person who can make you stop crying, is exactly the one who is making you cry?"//
//"I thought about you today, and for the first time it wasn't about the past, or the lies, it wasn't about the hurt, or the tears, it wasn't about my broken heart or what I used to wish the future would be. It was about the end to all that.''//
//"Some wounds never heal, they just stop bleeding...."//
//"You opened my soul, and now it's too late. I pushed you away, I can't expect you to wait. I see you with her and can't help but cry, knowing that you loved me first and you could have been mine."//
//"A song that could only once make me smile, can now only make me cry."//
Posted by Giselle at 12/10/2003 04:20:00 AM
Monday, December 08, 2003
hmm..today was an alright day for me..went to school and all..well..jeremy came to school today..haha impressive..
well..i got to say he's contaminated haha..he's down with influenza..crap man..
he's been sneezing non stop for the 3 hours.. fortunately i am seated in front in him..flu is super contagious and i dont wanna get that heh..
oh well sorry i cant go zouk with ya on wednesday..
oh oh i was watching the star studded event ya know..the star awards..wow been sucha long time since i ever watched the show..anyway some of the stars wore very nice elegant gowns..like zoe tay..she looks beautiful in the gown or dress she was wearing...very sophisticated..and huang biren..she wore something like a guy's wear..she looks amazing..ya know very charming..i think she will look good as a guy..she got the height and all..
well enough of star galore..hmm..was really bored at home and so i decided to write a poem related to dash..i dont know whether does it sound cheesy or whatsoever but it comes from my heart..took me quite a while to wrote..here goes:
Thoughts
Looking out of the window,
thinking of where should i go,
been hesitating.
Looking back at the memories,
i should be contended,
blessed to had you once,
but you still linger in my heart, my soul.
On my mind,
a picturesque image always form
on the day we first met.
your charming physique,
your enraptured smile,
your intriquing idiosyncrasies
sets you apart,
and drawn me to you.
Perhaps the time was not right,
a fool i was,
we both fell hard,
leaving me now to pick up the pieces.
But my love will go on endlessly.
From the day we spoke,
till the day i breathe my last.
hmm..well listening to mariah carey 'all i want for christmas is you'
oh yes i misses my friends so much..hope ya all are doing fine..
ym.mt.ps.doug.weilin.vainpot.wifey.xiu.fiona.yulian.serene.gloria.ecca.karen.ash.becky
hmm..most of them are working so hope ya all are coping well and all alright..
must meet up soon..
oh yes during christmas i gotta attend my father's godmother's son wedding..damn..
but luckily it is located in marina mandarin..yeahs so able to meet up..heave a sigh of relief man..heh..
alright hopes ecca is feeling better..take care =)
//"What is love? Love is seeing him how no one else does. It's when you know he's not perfect but you see him perfectly. Love is thinking about him day and night; it's when he means the world to you. Love is when no one else knows how you feel, love is the best feeling you can feel."//
//"Love is true when you think of him and you smile so big that people look at you and wonder who could possibly make you this happy."//
//"The worst thing you could do right now is tell me that I can find someone better then you ... when you're all I want."//
//"If I could put into words how my heart feels when I see you, or when I think of you, I would be talking forever."//
//"My body can leave, my mind can leave, but my damn heart just won't follow."//
//"People say that seconds before you die you will see your life's greatest accomplishment. How come when I closed my eyes, all I saw was you?"//
//"Have you ever cried your eyes out until all the tears in this world have dried, and yet the sourness in your heart still hasn't gone? That's when the person causing you the pain is the only one you ever loved."//
//"There are a hundred reasons why I should give up, but you're the one reason I keep going."//
//"Whenever I see you, my heart dances all over the place."//
//"If I were to go blind, I would still and forever have a vision of you in my mind."//
//"Before you, I saw the same sea, sky and hills and didn't know you lived and breathed on this sweet planet. But now, having met and loved you, I cannot walk this earth knowing you are where I am not."//
//"No matter how many times I try and move on, my heart always takes me back here to you."//
//"Every time I think it’s the end, I see you and I start to feel again..."//
//"The first time I saw you, I knew it was true, that I'd love you forever, and that's what I'll do. You don't know what you do to me, you don't have a clue, you don't know what it's like to be, me looking at you."//
//"If you have the courage to love, you have the courage to suffer."//
//"If you ever had your heart broken or hurt, and you forgave that person and still was able to love them like before, that's true love!"//
//"You bring out the best in me. I don't think you understand just how much you mean to me. I treasure the tears, the laughter, but most importantly, the memories. I'll love you forever and always!"//
//"Dreamin' of you makes my heart race. Thinkin' of you brings a smile to my face. Talkin' to you makes me want you even more, but bein' with you, damn Baby, that's what I live for!"//
//"My voice is too soft for you to hear. My actions are too weak for you to see. But if you would only listen carefully, you'll hear the sound of my heart that says from now 'til forever, I'll always be here..//
//"I have waited my whole life for someone as beautiful as you and if I had to wait another lifetime for us to have a second chance I'd wait. Until that day comes, I'll be by your side supporting and loving you with all of my heart my love."//
//"When I am with you, I wish I could stop time so I could spend forever with you and never have to leave your company."//
//"They say time heals and makes us forget but what we shared will never be erased."//
//"Time goes by, year after year, and still in my memory I see you so clear."//
//"Wondering if I'm wasting all my time. You know I'm dedicating every thought to you. I'll wait all my life, hoping one day you'll see that, but I'm not complaining, 'cause in the end, I keep believing that it would be you and me."//
//"Every now and then, I wish it were then instead of now."//
//"Time may change my life but my heart remains the same to you. Time may change your heart, but my love for you never changes."//
//"In your absence my heart grows stronger. In your presence I fall in love again."//
//"If I would have known my heart would break, I would have loved you anyway."//
//"You may not have heard me tell you that I love you, but the way that I look into your eyes, the way I smile when you pass by, and the way that my heart feels when you are near all speaks of what best describes the love that I feel."//
//"Sometimes your nearness takes my breath away, and all the things I want to say can find no voice. Then in silence, I can only hope, my eyes will speak my heart."//
//"It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart, without saying a word you can light up the dark."//
//"When Love is real, the heart will know when to hold on and when to let go. The heart remembers more than the mind can hold, the heart understands more than any intelligent mind could access, not outwit."//
//"To be honest with you, I don't have the words to make you feel better, but I do have the arms to give you a hug, ears to listen to whatever you want to talk about, and I have a heart; a heart that's aching to see you smile again."//
//"Evertime I see you my heart smiles.''//
//"God, will you let her know that I love her so when there’s no one there, that she’s not alone? Just close her eyes and let her know my heart is beating with hers."//
//"She cried when I left her, now, I cry to forget her. Oh, how foolish I was to ever want to leave because nobody in his right mind would have left her ... even my heart was smart enough to stay behind."//
//"When my love for you stops, so does my heart."//
//"How blue can I get, you could ask my heart. Just like a jugsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart. A million words couldn't say just how I feel. A million years from now, you know, I'll be loving you still. The nights are lonely, the days are so sad and I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had. And I'm missing you and nobody knows it but me."//
//"Love is like a knife, it can stab the heart or it can carve wonderful images into the soul that will last a lifetime."//
//"My heart love till now for sweared sight, for I never saw true beauty till this night."//
Posted by Giselle at 12/08/2003 04:01:00 AM
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