Wednesday, October 15, 2003
hmm..here to blog again.. seems like these few days been bloggin alot..well..maybe in the mood for that..
hmm...been reminisicing about the times between me and dashie..
haha no idea why.. think the reason is because i misses her alot..
and had been tracing back all the footsteps that we have been.. like in bugis, at the bus stop, everywhere seems to have her shadow..
sigh.. i totally cant get her out of my mind..
sometimes i even have to control my mind from wandering beyond..
cause once my mind starts to wander..tears will drop uncontrollably..
well.. tried to bury myself with schoolwork but it dont seem to work..
so now writin out my feelins..perhaps it will be better than bottling it up..
i tried crying it all out but the tears wont flow out.. it just stops..
perhaps it had dried up from excessive tearing..
hmm..well i have to try to be optimistic..takin things easy and all..
well gotta go do my assignment and all.. update laters..
GUILTY
I never want to play the games that people play
I never want to hear the things they gotta say
I've found everything I need
I never wanted anymore than I can see
I only want you to believe
If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime
Then I'm guilty
I wanna give you all the things you never had
Don't try to tell me how he treats you isn't bad
I need you back in my life
I never wanted just to be the other guy
I never wanted to live a lie
If it's wrong to tell the truth
What am I supposed to do
All I want to do is speak my mind
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime
Then I'm guilty
Girl I followed my heart
Followed the truth
Right from the start it led me to you
Please don't leave me this way
I'm guilty now all I have to say
If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my hearts a crime
Then I'm guilty
Baby I Love You
I never knew I could feel
The way I felt, when I felt
The way you were feelin me baby
I'm so out of control
Everytime you look my way
I realize more and more
How much I adore those pretty eyes of yours
I'm helpless baby
What I want to know is
Are you willing to try
Can you love me for a lifetime
Or just one night
Baby I love you
Love You
Baby I need you
Need You
I gotta have you
I gotta have you baby
Can't be without you
Be without you
Blessed and Cursed on the same day
The day that I first felt the power of you
Inside of me
Such a strong feeling
There comes a time in everyones life
When you know that everyone around you knows
That everything has changed, your not the same
Its a new day
Oh what I wanna know is
Are you willing to try
Try to be more meaning to this than what meets the eye
Posted by Giselle at 10/15/2003 05:32:00 AM
Tuesday, October 14, 2003
oooh i love the song by fabolous feat tamia..*into you*the mtv rocks and so is the song.. so damn nice..
well i am beginnin to take things slowly in my strife..
anyway love is suppose to be altruistic right.. hmm.
i am jus gonna do just that.. be there for dash and all slowly..
i will still love dash all the same..
just takin things slowly..hmm..feel so much better now..
previously on the verge of breaking down..
its that bad!!
the song is really very nice.. hee.. i keep hummin to the song
wherever i go.. hehehe
oh nothin much to update.. anyway found out that smokin and listenin to heavy metal
could lead to killin your dendroids which means your memory or braincells will be killed.. thats bad ya know.. cause erm dash smokes.. oh and listenin to soft rock or joggin in the mornin will help increase your dendroids so alls' well again haha.. hmm..
anyway will update again when i am free.. tataz..
gonna put the song on replay mode..!! *winks*
"Never Gonna Leave Your Side"
I feel like a song without the words
A man without a soul
A bird without its wings
A heart without a home
I feel like a knight without a sword
The sky without the sun
cos you are the one
I feel like a ship beneath the waves
A child that lost its way
A door without a key
A face without a name
I feel like a breath without the air
And every day's the same
since you've gone away
I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning
You used to be the one that put a smile on my face
There are no words that could describe how I miss you
and I miss you everyday
and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl
I won't let you go
cos when I'm lying in your arms
I know I'm home
They tell me that a man can lose his mind
Living in the pain
The call in times gone by
The crying in the rain
You know I've wasted half the time
And I'm on my knees again
'till you come to me
I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning
You used to be the one that put a smile on my face
There are no words that could describe how I miss you
and I miss you everyday
and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl
I won't let you go
I lay my head against your heart
"White Flag"
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
I'll tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
Posted by Giselle at 10/14/2003 06:23:00 AM
Monday, October 13, 2003
well..i am bloggin again..hmm..i found quite a number of my schoolmates in friendster..
haha really missed them and all..
well..i miss my sec school life as well.. really missed it!!
hmm..i am struggling within myself..
i really dunno what to do.. i really yearn for her..
i really misses those times we used to share from the morning shines
to the late night conversations.. damn~!! i really miss you!!
but i dunno what am i gonna do.. i am so stuck!!
i wanna move on with her but we have drifted so far..
i dunno how am i gonna tell her and all..
if ya are in my shoes ya will know what i mean..
its not that i dont wanna tell her how i feel..seriously i really do wanna tell her...
theres a fear inside me that i will lose her.. and i dont wanna lose her...
well..i was readin my horoscope for today.. and this is what it says:
A Monday of wonderment, huifang!
You may be feeling lovesick today. Soulmate energy has weakened in an area it was once strongest. You are left wondering what direction a relationship is actually taking. You are beholden to illusion if you don't take charge.
its this what am i supposed to do?? tell her??
but its that too big a step to take i wonder..
if we both were as close as before..
YES!! definitely i will tell her but lookin at the situation that i am in..
i dont know whether the best solution is to tell her!!
well..maybe i could try to pick up where we have left.. but its gonna be real hard..
i will try..anyway i had lose the first chance.. will i be granted a second chance??
that i wont know but i will try..
This song always reminds me of dashie cause she introduce this song to me and
i fell in love with it!!
Dying inside to hold you
It's turning out just another day
I took a shower and I went on my way
I stopped there as usual
had a coffee and pie
when i turned to leave
i couldn't believe my eyes
standing there i didn't know what to say
without one touch
we stood there face to face
(And) i was dying indside to hold you
i couldn't believe what i felt for you
dying inside i was dying inside
but i couldn't bring myself to touch you
you said hello then u asked my name
i didn't know if i should go all the way
inside i felt my life have really changed
i knew that it would never be the same
standing there i didn't know what to say
first time looked away when i whispered your name
one hello changed my life
i didn't believe in love at first sight
but you've shown me what is life
and I now i know my love (i know its coming right)
"Viva Forever"
Do you still remember
How we used to be
Feeling together, believe in whatever
My love has said to me
Both of us were dreamers
Young love in the sun
Felt like my saviour, my spirit I gave ya
We'd only just begun
Hasta Manana,
Always be mine
Viva forever, I'll be waiting
Everlasting, like the sun
Live forever,
For the moment
Ever searching for the one
Yes I still remember,
Every whispered word
The touch of your skin, giving life from within
Like a love song that I'd heard
Slipping through our fingers,
Like the sands of time
Promises made, every memory saved
Has reflections in my mind
Hasta Manana,
Always be mine
Back we're I belong now,
Was it just a dream
Feelings unfold, they will never be sold
And the secret's safe with me
Hasta Manana,
Always be mine
Posted by Giselle at 10/13/2003 05:32:00 AM
Sunday, October 12, 2003
hmm...sigh i am here again but with a heavy heart..i am at a loss of what to do with dashie..
i am really STUCK!!
well..yesterday i message dash about the beef noodles.. ya know to meet up
to eat the beef noodles but she cant make it because she's goin to the beach..
well..my heart really sank..i guess its because i wanna know whos she goin to the beach with..gal?? or guy?? but i didnt dare to ask.. sigh..i really went to depression cause after that, i started to think like what the hell situation am i in now..
like i am neither here nor there..she dont even know how i feel towards her for all these times..cause i am really afraid to tell her.. i am really scared that i will spoil whatever we have now..i am afraid we both will feel very awkward and all..sigh..
should i take a step forward or backward??? i really dunno..i really wanna tell her how i feel but i am afraid she will ask me to move on..i am really scared.. i dont wanna lose her and all..this is the first time i am feelin so DAMN SCARED!! and i really am...
well.. this mess of shit is afterall what i created..i took for granted the previous time we had..i wish i could turn back time and relive those wonderous moments we had..
all those long talks on the phone.. those times we will meet up and all.. i really wish i could go back..well..one chance is all i have and its gone..
i dont wanna stay in this damn position.. maybe the right time will come where i will be able to pluck up my courage to tell her how i feel.. maybe..
well anyway i wanna thank ym and mt for talkin to me yesterday in cine and gave me some good advices..
and thanks to daniel for talkin and givin me support when i needed it.. thanks yeah!! really appreciate ya all..
well anyway today's mornin dash message me to go eat beef noodles as the weather is bad to go to the beach but then it started rainin and all and we have to cancel it again..oh well.. i am not gonna anticipate anything in the future until its confirm and all..
hmm..maybe i shall take some time off now and think about this prob..
well tataz pplez..
"Invisible"
What are you doing tonight
I wish I could be a fly on your wall
Are you really alone
Still in your dreams
Why can't I bring you into my life
What would it take to make you see that I'm alive
If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invisible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
I saw your face in the crowd
I called out your name
You don't hear a sound
I keep tracing your steps
Each move that you make
Wish I could be what goes through your mind
Wish you could touch me with the colors of your life
If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invisible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
I reach out
But you don't even see me
Even when I'm screaming
Baby, you don't hear me
I am nothing without you
Just a shadow passing through...
"Into You (Remix)"
I think your truly something special
Just what my dreams are really made of
Lets stay together you and me boy
There's no 1 like you around Oh baby
ooh you know that I love you yea yes
I can't really explain it
I'm so into you now
I wanna be more than a friend to you now
When they ask, I mention my babygirl in the interviews now
And I don't bring the problems from the 90s and the 2 thou
Theres no reason to have a friend or two now
Cuz the kids ready to tell you how he feel and a few vows
Maybe I speak in general now
But girl, imma do whatever just to keep a grin on u now
Where I roll, they wear bikinis in the winter too now
What you think about tan lines on the skin of you now?
Why wouldnt I wanna spend a few thou
On fifth ave, shopping sprees and them dinners to chow
I aint concerned with other men with you now
As long as when I slide up in you, you growl
And any dude with you, he better be a king to you now
And I aint jealous, it's the principle now
I'm so into you
I really like what you've done to me
I can't really explain it
I'm so into you
I really like what you've done to me
I can't really explain it
I'm so into you
Come on ma
It'd more than a flashing
I woulda traded it all in orderly fashion
My billa in Florida we crashing
Just off the shore so you can hear when the water be splashing
The Drop top 3 in the quota we dashing
Flawless diamonds in the water we flashing
The money we oughta be stashing
I make sure ever quarter be cashed in
I can't really explain it
My friends be thinking I'm slipping
These girls be thinking I'm tripping
What kinda weed u be smoking
What typa drinks u be sipping
Sweet thing just to think of you dipping
Would have me with the blue so hard
You would think I was crimping
Now you relaxing in the Benz
Credit cards are no limits
So u don't worry about maxing when u spends
But since u been asking about the friends
How u like it if both our names had Jackson on the ends
I really like what you've done to me
I can't really explain it
I'm so into you
I really like what you've done to me
I can't really explain it
I'm so into you
I don't wanna trip, but the truth is
Girl the way you cook a steak
Remind me of them trips to Roofchris
U love my smile, no matter how chipped my tooth is
With you it aint because my whips is ruthless
So sit on chrome, dip the deuces
And you aint flattered by Canary and VS dip tay seuces
All the ballers look dumb when they press you
Five and sixes, you don't let them kinda impress you
Even though I was so unsuccessful
Being a player was becoming too stressful
But ever since, this superwoman has come to my rescue
My winters been wonderful, my summers been special
That's why the same bar while the villa been painted
Just so we can really get acquainted
The love is real, there's no way you can feel like it's tainted
But I can't really explain it, yeah
I really like what you've done to me
I can't really explain it
I'm so into you
I really like what you've done to me
I can't really explain it
I'm so into you
I really like what I feel when Im with you
You're a dream come true
Dont you ever leave my side o no
Cuz it feels so right
Posted by Giselle at 10/12/2003 05:54:00 AM
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